I still find it difficult, knowing, accepting, that I have an impact on this world. That I can make the world a better place. I’ve ended many relationships, caused a lot of hurt. And I tend to dwell on that sometimes and forget, or mitigate, the joy I might have brought while in the relationship. I see it as a symptom of being too focused on me, too egotistical. But I am aware of it, and awareness is the first step in change.

Ultimately, I have to be true to myself. I can have no doubts about the choices I have made. Because I made them from a good place, a true place, an honest place. I have to trust myself. And trust I will learn and make better choices, accept I am a flawed human and always will be. I have to love myself and believe in my tenet of making the people around me happy, being selfless as much as possible, but always, always taking care of myself.