It’s like fucking throwing darts at a dartboard, but you have no clue where the dartboard is, but you have a picture of the dartboard, and you have a okay description of the dartboard. You put a lot time and a lot of care into each one of your darts, so each time you throw and miss, it eats away at you a little. After 100s and 100s of times over the years, it’s a challenge to throw with maximum confidence and your desire to play dwindles.