There are always things you wish you did in hindsight. Some are small and some can be huge. And sometimes the small ones can be the most important. People make choices every day that will affect others we know and those we don’t, more than we will ever know. I don’t use fate or ”things happen for a reason” as a crutch. Good or bad, my choices in life have brought me to where I am today. However, sometimes things happen that open your eyes and show you how awesome every little choice is.

My cousin is dead by his own hand. We were never very close and in many ways that makes it worse because that was a choice. For both of us, I guess. Still, I wasn’t there when he needed someone. And if I had made different choices, he might not have done the things he did. I could have helped and I might have made a difference, the difference. I’ll never know. It’s a difficult reminder that my choices have consequences and I have to live with every single one of them. The world is what it is because of me. And every one of you.

“In the long run, we shape our lives, and we shape ourselves. The process never ends until we die. And the choices we make are ultimately our own responsibility.”

Eleanor Roosevelt

“And everyone makes mistakes these days…nobody’s perfect
But the choices that you make may involve someone else.”

The Ataris


Current mood: crappy / angry / sad