I feel like more of an anomaly than usual. I don’t know. I often feel like I do tonight…it is as if I exist on a different plane of reality. I walk through people’s lives. It’s just I feel everyone is living a life that I’m observing. I’m an outsider. Life will go on and if I interact with it, great. If I don’t…it does not matter. Life and people find their own way. It makes one feel so small and insignificant. Like you have to try so incredibly hard to make a difference in someone’s life and then you never know if your actions were for not. You’re left wondering and contemplating everything you’ve done. It’s very…
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it’s very nonconsequential, I agree. Then again it is 5 am, and I am reading this wasted off my ass. HAHAH…but I totally get what you are saying, and I know that feeling. But then you can go off into a whole rant about sliding doors, etc, the road not taken, blah blah blah…and ultimately Newton’s law of Physics. But I digress. Dean you have an effect on people lives. Kelly (whom I have yet to meet…) smiles because of you, and your friends laugh because of you. With you…ok maybe sometime at, but I digress once again…lol….you are not an outsider, because others look at youyr life and quite possibly feel the same feelings you feel as well. I hope some of this makes sense because once again, I have to say I am very very drunk…tee hee….lol…
I think we all feel like that sometimes. But through my observations of people, I’ve realized that each of us makes an impact on everyone’s life we touch, no matter how hard we try. Even if we don’t try at all.